apple juice and cocoa

around the same a year ago,
naiveness, first time excitement and the feeling of missing overshadowed
creating a somewhat mixture of sweet and sour
like apple juice...sweet but having a slight sour end

today, at the very same place,
same familiar ambiance and corner
the heart does not feel what it felt it felt a year ago
adaption works with time
the circumstances influence your thoughts
changes occurs and change perceptions
people come, people go
memories created, photographs taken
but that was the last of it
time made it bitter sweet, like a cocoa


still sitting at the same spot
but with entirely different views of life
glancing out at the bright sunny weather
a smile creeps on the face
we don't know what tomorrow brings
life is just so unexpected
who would have thought?
yes, a has year passed....
we all try to adapt with life and move on
even when u have to say a bitter sweet goodbye
to everything you've known in this place






Enjoy today and what the day brings, don't waste TODAY worrying about TOMORROW.


with luv,
me

LOVE..... afterall, is a game..

Question is, are u game??

Being humans, we do, more often than not, feel scared and insecure. And we cant help it..no matter how much u try to stop thinking about it. Hence, i believe there sure is a good reason as to why we all feel that way.

Like a game of snake and ladders or monopoly, we all hope to win. Truth is, no one likes to lose.

People always try to search for clues and try testing the waters a bit before getting into a relationship or deciding whether to get into one. This, sadly, does not necessarily mean that there are sparks flying or chemistry unleashed between both people as this may just be a method one party uses to see how far he/she is accepted or means in the other person's life. To some, the result will boost their ego and self-esteem whereas some would merely only enjoy the process. More often than not, the other party, if happens to have some positive feelings might probably drop hints or by actions show reassurance or any sort of positive reply. Sometimes, the party who started the game might actually freak out and move a step backward. This may be due to the initiating party realising that he/she probably couldn't give as much or is actually not ready to be in a relationship afterall.

When this happens, because of one party's curiousity or eagerness to search for an answer, without realising, you've hurt the other person and turning him/her into a selfish person who now guards and protects his/her heart with extra extra TLC. Being made known the reason, no one can blame the victim as he/she would obviously give more to protect his/her heart that has once been given out to be scrutinized. Unintentionally and effortlessly, this may lead to them victimizing the next heart in line. That is why there are so many broken souls and hearts out there.








PS: This post is inspired by one of the blogs i frequently visit. i feel that she speaks my mind and her writings are my thoughts exactly. although i may not know her, i somehow feel that i can relate to her in some ways.


love always
~me

people always leave - OTH

" Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. "

-Charles M. Schulz

hazelnut & caramel ~15310309

xoxo
`mE

.:: chocolate pudding ::.

Last week, same day around this time, i was clinking and clanking the mixer bowl and spatula in the kitchen. i had a sudden feeling to bake. So i decided to make chocolate pudding. Not that i craved for it or was too free...well, i dunno, just purely random. *teehehehe*

the ongoing process





after a few mins.....TAda!!! It's done!!





hot chocolate pudding :)





served with Bulla's vanilla flavoured Ice-cream and Chocolate sauce.... MMMmmmm...oooooohlala

as always
`me

| definitely.maybe |

I just finished watching Definitely, Maybe.
It's good..it's good. Loving it so much.
Highly recommended.
I like Isla Fisher in the movie tooo and oh...Ryan Reynolds!!!




Will : Just shut up! Here... I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?
April : Definitely. Maybe.

April: (on relationships) “Forget about the “real” deal. You don’t find it, it finds you…you know, when you are ready for marriage, a mortgage…(other examples)...the person that you are with THEN is the one.

Will: “So, it’s not WHO; it’s WHEN?”

I might re-watch. I am quite silly. I had the movie in my laptop for quite a while now and completely forgot about it. I've let such a good movie lying in my laptop at bay. Luckily, i was reminded by a friend or else..i probably still would not have realised.



Anyhow, I think I'm going to bed.

Good nite, ppl !




PS: Daylight savings end in in about 7 mins.



xoxo
-me

♥ | the birthday post | ♥

Here are the pictures i've promise to upload. Thanks again all of u!!! *muahzz**

*** 15th March 2009 - with cousins ***

Blueberry Cheesecake from Michel's

ohhh...!! need i say more???!!!



errr...i guess everyone would be focusing on the one behind...LOL

*** my house session - 21st March 2009 ***

the booze and tidbits

the drinking manual aka the circle of death

courtesy of Ernst & Young... tee-hehehe

*** 22nd March 2009 ***




Thai Naree, Auburn




the interior

yours truly, Ping & Matt




with the girls



Thai salad





i love the Prawn Pad Thai..it's so yummy




and the Green Curry tooo.... *newfound love*




spicy beef with vege




roti....hmm, tasted somewhat similar to roti canai






complimentary by the restaurant owner for me - chicken with cashew nuts










birthday dessert platter




which came with sparkles ....!!!



MMmmmmmmm....




another cake after...from my lovely housemates! gosh..im so fat already....

*** Dinner with Ying, Ping & Matt ***

@ Vialetto's... nice place, good foodd...



chandeliers all over



Ping's seafood linguini



Matt and Ying both ordered Lamb shank




my Penne all' amatriciana




coffee creme brulee...it's good!!!



tiramisu..... not too bad as well

*** Lovely Presents and thoughtful cards i've received. ***

with love
`me
xoxo

♥ | these 22 years | ♥

It's a late late birthday post obviously. Had been catching up with homework and bonding with books. Well, this year's birthday is all good. First was a pre-bday celebration a week before my birthday. My cousins got together and cooked me dinner..how how sweet of them : ) Then on the 21st, I held a small drinking at my apartment with some close friends. Nope...no wild behaviours and no one KO-ed la okay.... Most have high alcohol tolerance :P . We played the Circle of Death and had some booze to go round while just enjoying each others's company. The actual day itself was reserved for dinner with only my housemates. However, it turned out that they had a surprise planned for me where they invited my close friends to join as well. Only Ping and Matt manage to join as the others have already made plans. Thanks Ping and Matt for coming all the way from Bendigo. After dinner, we went back home as we were all stillvfull to have coffee or dessert. At home, housemates and friends appeared with a birthday cake in front of me. *hugs*

Thank you so so much all of you..for making this indeed a very special day and something i definitely will not forget. Same time last year, housemates held a party for me whereby each and everyone of them cooked a few dishes each. It was also definitely one to remember and to treasure.




Having come so far, I couldn't thank God more for all the blessings He has showered upon me. Thank U so much for having me born into a wonderful,loving yet supportive family. They say, u can't choose your family and relatives nor what kind of background u will be born into. I'm happy and thankful with what i already have. Secondly, I'm thankful for all the friends that i've acquired all these years, no matter which part of the world you are in right now. Thank you to those who posted on my FB wall (altho i was a lil taken aback to see all the posts when i first logged in), i feel so so loved..but sorry, i cant possibly reply each and everyone of u. Big thanks also to those who have sent me birthday cards, text messages and also those who made an effort to call.


Growing up, I consider myself very blessed having to know all of u. Each and everyone of you are in my life for a reason and each and everyone of u are special to me, regardless if we've only crossed paths a little while. To my baby sister, I'm thankful that u r my sister and my bestest friend. Thank u for every every everything...u r the best! love u lots!!! To my gorgeous and bestest girlfriends, i love u girls heaps. U know who u are.... thank you for always hearing me out, not reluctant to advise me or giving your honest opinions. xoxo. My dearest housemates, thank u so much for everything. Having live with all of you about a year and a half now, it definitely would be part my of my life whereby one day i would look back and reminisce the good times we had together. I couldn't possibly write a long list here, but please know that I haven't forget any of u and that u all are always within my thoughts. All of you are like fine gems in my life, which I will always treasure.


To You, I guess if I've written this a month ago, two weeks ago and now, I reckoned I will have three different versions. Oh well, what's past is past, but memories remain. Thank you for everything, for always being there when I needed a friend to talk to, for believing in me and encouraging me in times I couldn't see myself through. Knowing you made me see life and things from a different angle, a perspective which I never thought of before. U hold a special place in my heart....thank you so so much...


And You, knowing you seemed to bring out another ME which I didn't think I have. Thank you for allowing me to see and get to know myself better and thus, being able to see the world from another point of view. Thank you for understanding, always being frank and opening up and sharing your experiences with me. I'm sure u did not realise, but I've learned a lot from u. Thanks so so much for everything. Thank you for looking highly upon me....really appreaciate it. Most importantly, thanks for the memories. U too, have a special place in my heart.





lots of hugs and kisses,
`me
xoxo.

::: on two different accounts :::

Oh well, it was just another day.
Where the below took place.


*** On MSN this afternoon ***

HE says:
OMG!!!! u r WORKING!!!!
the PRINCESS!!!!
did U eye a LV bag tat u muz have?
lunch time princess...chat in a while
buhbye
n ɑ t a l i e says:
okie dokie
ttyl
hahaha..i quitted dy

an hour or so later...

HE says:
SO FAS QUIT?????
n ɑ t a l i e says:
hahaha
cant stand them
wahahah
so spoilt brat hor??
teruk ah me
HE says:
HMMM...mayb a bit
but were u paid bad??
n ɑ t a l i e says:
hahaha
way way bad ok
n do everything summo
overwork underpaid
and when i told ppl n frens i worked
they were like
ha?? u work
how come..cant believe le
u don have the working face they all say
aduhmak!!!
HE says:
HAHAHA
C...nt jz me say
n ɑ t a l i e says:
ya lor...
haihsss....
why la...
HE says:
duno le...mayb u oways v princess like??
hehee


.....
what???!!! alamakzz!!! adakah???
seemed like ppl perceived me that way...would only work if i needed to own something so badly.
many many ppl have given me the same response, both close friends and acquaintances.
really need "working" face ka?? hhhmmmpphhhhh...!!!!

But seriously, i miss this friend. Miss having him around in the midst of outings, his loud voice and his sense of humour. sighhh..those were the days. either way, i shall see u soon, when u come here or i go back. :)


the next one, is just ROFL....

SHE says:
tis mornin vry funny...i 4got to tell u
ssaa gives away d cereal 4 breakfast rite...hehehe
n ɑ t a l i e says:
again?
SHE says:
when i pass by they were shouting "FREE BREAKFAST!!!"
lol
n ɑ t a l i e says:
i knw
dat day also like dat
SHE says:
den d guy sat nxt to me vry funny lo....i didnt c him wif d plate
suddenly during breaktime...he took out d plate wif cereals
n pour milk on it
beeh tahan
n ɑ t a l i e says:
ahahahaha
LOL
he hid his plate
SHE says:
i tink so...duno where he hides them
n ɑ t a l i e says:
hahah
but so funny la
like doraemon
SHE says:
hahaha
n ɑ t a l i e says:
got pocket ajaib
SHE says:
multiprpose pocket
n ɑ t a l i e says:
wrong wrong...
kantung ajaib
SHE says:
d cereal suddenly appear 1 on d table n d milk
n ɑ t a l i e says:
aduhmak
funny la
SHE says:
got spoon sumore le



LOL. yes. just another plain random, wu-liaw day.


-yours truly